Sunflower Confessions

Trying to come into alignment with that truth. The truth that pain doesn’t last always. And that the darkest hour is just before day. These are truths. But in your moment of despair it’s hard to recognize these as truths. Your inner being tells your heart that there are better days and you visualize these days but then your mind brings you back to your current state and your hopes are shattered once again. Then you recount the cycles and you wonder will you ever get off of this rollercoaster of emotional torment?!  Being a believer of Christ I know that this is where faith and reclaiming your authority in God through Christ comes in. Once you feel that nudge grasp it and don’t let it go no matter what your head tells you. Easier said than done, I know! I often ask God why did he allow certain things and people to come into my life only for them to disappointment me greatly?! Often I tell God I was better off without knowing them! But he reminds me that ALL things work together for ...

  "I'd rather have a connection, than to simply connect."-- Jess Renée What I have learned from relationships thus far in my life is that not many understand true intimacy. Intimacy doesn't just involve a sexual experience, although it is a form of intimacy. However, anyone can experience a physical connection with emptiness inside. What I mean is that two people who barely know one another can experience a physical climax from sexual desire, but once that climax is reached you're left with the emptiness of knowing they only felt the physicality of your existence when we are so much more than our physical form. So you put your clothes on feeling worse than before you gave into your lust. It is human nature to want to feel loved but sex is only one of the expressions of ones love IT IS NOT LOVE. This is where the confusion comes in. You think just because someone desires your body that they respect your spirit and soul, and that is simply NOT TRUE. We are creatures...