SEX is NOT love!

 "I'd rather have a connection, than to simply connect."-- Jess Renée

What I have learned from relationships thus far in my life is that not many understand true intimacy. Intimacy doesn't just involve a sexual experience, although it is a form of intimacy. However, anyone can experience a physical connection with emptiness inside. What I mean is that two people who barely know one another can experience a physical climax from sexual desire, but once that climax is reached you're left with the emptiness of knowing they only felt the physicality of your existence when we are so much more than our physical form. So you put your clothes on feeling worse than before you gave into your lust. It is human nature to want to feel loved but sex is only one of the expressions of ones love IT IS NOT LOVE. This is where the confusion comes in. You think just because someone desires your body that they respect your spirit and soul, and that is simply NOT TRUE.

We are creatures that thrive off of human connection. We need it to survive, so when we get with someone who we find attractive HORMONES sometimes can get the best of us and we physically connect, forgetting about our eternity which is our spirit, thusly letting go of true connection. Once we give into our sexual lust we leave our spirits open, connecting to people we know NOTHING about. Then you find yourself not being able to stop thinking about that person so you confuse your obsession and infatuation with a deep sense of care and admiration for this person. When what is really happening is that once you physically climaxed during your sexual experience you left your spirit open to receive whatever that person had to offer BLINDLY.

A SOULTIE! 

As time goes on you realize with logic that you and this person really aren't made for one another and yet you cant seem to shake them. This is because you allowed your spirit to become open and vulnerable. True intimacy involves being able to be 100% authentic with the person you're with. Relationships are HARD work and issues cant be fixed in the bedroom. SO once the sex is over how does this person think and how do you tackle real problems, and do you feel EMOTIONALLY SAFE? 

Yes, sex is a part of our make-up and our creator designed us that way, HOWEVER he only wanted us to sexually connect with one person because sex is a spiritual act as well as a physical one. This is why some refer to it as "sex magic" because sex can be and it IS a binding ritual of the spirit. 

MY desire is to have a lifetime partner where I feel 100% emotionally safe. So safe that I can be my authentic self in all my forms. If I dont feel safe emotionally I cant connect with you sexually. This is why I’d rather have a connection, than to simply connect. I believe thats a good thing because I am protecting my spirit from binding with those who do not deserve me spiritually into eternity. And although I am not a virgin my spirit remains untainted. And I will continue to have this wall up until GOD brings it down with comfort to let me know its time to connect physically and release my spirit in the binding ritual we call sex with who he has called my husband to be.


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  1. ToyaMay 2, 2021 at 3:36 PM

    Powerful message and very educational‼️ This is so true and it wasn’t until I had my own personal experience that I fully understood the meaning of soul ties!

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