This TOO shall pass



Trying to come into alignment with that truth. The truth that pain doesn’t last always. And that the darkest hour is just before day. These are truths. But in your moment of despair it’s hard to recognize these as truths. Your inner being tells your heart that there are better days and you visualize these days but then your mind brings you back to your current state and your hopes are shattered once again. Then you recount the cycles and you wonder will you ever get off of this rollercoaster of emotional torment?! 

Being a believer of Christ I know that this is where faith and reclaiming your authority in God through Christ comes in. Once you feel that nudge grasp it and don’t let it go no matter what your head tells you. Easier said than done, I know! I often ask God why did he allow certain things and people to come into my life only for them to disappointment me greatly?! Often I tell God I was better off without knowing them! But he reminds me that ALL things work together for the GOOD to them who love God. I may not know but he knows. This is comforting, and I must be honest, only sometimes! There’s a particular person, who I will not name, who caused me GREAT pain. I often wonder why God did you allow this? I never knew this person until they found me! Someone mentioned my name and they FOUND ME! 

It’s human nature to want answers. I will not tell you not to question God because I believe we are his children, and as children we go to our father needing understanding. Before this person entered my life I was achieving EVERY goal. And then suddenly EVERYTHING came to a halt once I allowed them in, under false pretenses.  Yes I allowed it in some ways but in a lot of ways I did NOT. So why Lord what was the purpose?!!! He said he was a “man of God” and played the part!!! I was tricked! And I suffered GREATLY FOR IT! But I ask God what was the purpose?! 

I don’t know. But what I do know is that I’m ready to be healed from the damage that was caused and I want everything that was lost in this process restored GREATER than what I had before. That’s one of Gods promises from Job to David. Full Restoration is what I need. 

Namaste 🙏🏽 

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  1. ToyaMay 2, 2021 at 3:42 PM

    I’m in agreement with you for COMPLETE RESTORATION 🙏🏾🙌🏾

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